I refuse

So, I had my physical yesterday, March 18, 2011.  My blood pressure is 147 /99, which is the highest it has ever been. I am only 2 pounds shy of my heaviest weight.  Why am I allowing my body to deteriorate?  I am not taking care of myself and allowing the day to day activities of life to hinder my health.  I keep allowing myself excuses for not working out. "I'm too tired from driving"; "I'm too tired from working"; I just want to go home and be with my husband"; or the best one--"I need to read the bible" knowing full well I am going to allow myself to be distracted from that as well.  I keep allowing myself excuses from eating properly.  Not that I eat a lot of junk food, but I don't eat enough good food.  I'm not eating the 6 small meals a day that is currently recommended to keep your metabolism high.  At best, I eat twice a day.  Did God heal me from this deadly cancer only for me to die from heart disease or a stroke because I am overweight?  Certainly not!!  He promised me that with "long life he will satisfy me and show me his salvation".  But, I have to do my part.  I have to cooperate with God's vision for my life. And that vision does not include being overweight, having high blood pressure and most of all, being out of breath at the top of the stairs. I refuse to continue to allow excuses keep me from enjoying the full health insurance benefits that God provides.  I can go to the gym, read my bible, worship and praise God, go to church, go to work and take care of my household.  I am fearfully and wonderfully made, marvelous are thy works.